People often ask me why I never write about my marriage. The answer is really quite simple. I prefer to write about positive aspects of my life. There is nothing to be gained by focusing on the negative.
Today is August 18, 2014 and it’s just over five and a half years since my marriage ended. And these five and a half years have flown by way too quickly.
In a nutshell, I got married too young and for all the wrong reasons. I became “Mrs. Husband”, totally losing my identity and along with it my self-esteem and my self-confidence. Throughout the years, I lived my life vicariously through my children. And when they grew up and no longer required my constant attention, I hit rock bottom. I was bored and unhappy, a very dangerous combination. So dangerous in fact, that I attempted to take my own life more than once in the last four years of my marriage. My psychiatrist strongly urged me to leave that unhealthy relationship. He told me repeatedly that pills were not the answer to my quest for happiness.
Today I am high all the time……………on life! I am in charge. I make the decisions. I need only assume responsibility for MY actions. I am no longer a shadow but instead am in the spotlight. I am immensely enjoying my newly found freedom and my independence. I revel in my accomplishments since I have been on my own. I have published a book. I have had two successful total knee replacement surgeries. I have embarked on a new career, moved to Mexico, learned a new language and immersed myself in a new culture. I have met some amazing people along the way and have had some awesome adventures. And this is what I prefer to write about.
Of course there were happy times in my marriage. I will not deny that I do have some fond memories. However it goes without saying that the highlight of my marriage was the birth of my two children, the loves of my life. And I enjoy writing about them. They are my pride and joy and are often included in my blog posts.
As for me, I continue to grow. I am stronger and happier than I have been in years. I now focus on the present and the future, and have left the negativity in the past where it belongs.
I am Alive Again! This is coincidentally the title of my second book to be published in 2015.